01: Wednesday, August 13th, 2008. 12:34 AM.
A girl like you is impossible to find.
I keep having these dreams.
I've had them my entire life, and I've never really understood them.
But lately, they have become more frequent, and more vivid. I find myself thinking and wondering, more and more, more than ever before. What does it all mean?
In nearly every one of these dreams, there's this girl. Beautiful, brunette. Big, soul-searching, expressive eyes. She's sweet, kind, under the surface, but spunky and tough on the outside. She says what she wants, and what she means. She's brave and bold, and in so many ways, she's my complete opposite. I'm really nothing like that. I'm quiet, dorky, I keep to myself, I'm not entirely all that handsome... I know this. Yeah, I know, I'm a little insecure. But it's true. I'm nothing like this woman I dream of.
And yet, I think she's the girl of my dreams. It seems like she's everything I've ever wanted, ever needed. But, deep down, I feel like this girl doesn't exist. She couldn't. Dream girls rarely do.
So, for now, I'll just keep dating around, hoping maybe one day I might find someone at least a little like her. I just want to find a girl I feel like I can really be myself with. I have female friends that I get along with incredibly, but it's just not the same, you know? Not sure if it'll ever be the same for me.
You’re impossible to find...
I keep having these dreams.
I've had them my entire life, and I've never really understood them.
But lately, they have become more frequent, and more vivid. I find myself thinking and wondering, more and more, more than ever before. What does it all mean?
In nearly every one of these dreams, there's this girl. Beautiful, brunette. Big, soul-searching, expressive eyes. She's sweet, kind, under the surface, but spunky and tough on the outside. She says what she wants, and what she means. She's brave and bold, and in so many ways, she's my complete opposite. I'm really nothing like that. I'm quiet, dorky, I keep to myself, I'm not entirely all that handsome... I know this. Yeah, I know, I'm a little insecure. But it's true. I'm nothing like this woman I dream of.
And yet, I think she's the girl of my dreams. It seems like she's everything I've ever wanted, ever needed. But, deep down, I feel like this girl doesn't exist. She couldn't. Dream girls rarely do.
So, for now, I'll just keep dating around, hoping maybe one day I might find someone at least a little like her. I just want to find a girl I feel like I can really be myself with. I have female friends that I get along with incredibly, but it's just not the same, you know? Not sure if it'll ever be the same for me.
You’re impossible to find...
